Hahaha......I know it has been long since I last updated my blog. Today, I'm kind of free to write so here goes. :)

The few months I was working as a temp. The job was rather admin based, and was working for a VWO(Voluntary Welfare Organization). They run courses so I was there to help in the back-end work. I think the only job scope I enjoyed doing was getting refreshments for the participants as that was the only time where I can go out during office hours, and not sit in front of my computer. After my temp job ends, I continued to keep myself busy with the volunteering work at APEC during the Leaders' Week. This is currently till on-going, and my duty will end this Friday. These two weeks I having been waking up very early because of the event as I have chosen the morning shift which is the 8am timing. But because I need to get the security pass, I have to reach there even earlier. So for the past 5 days I have been waking up at 5.15am so that I can get there by 7am to get the security pass. I was tired out on the first day because there was lots of walking to do, and because of this my legs' muscle were very sore. However, I have to admit that it is a good exercise because many of us were literally walking and standing for long hours. What is next after this volunteering work? I am not very sure yet, but I will definitely continue looking for jobs. During the time between after this Friday to being offered a job, I guess I will treat it as a resting period for me so that I can be ready for the next challenge ahead of me.

I need to tell myself to stay positive and think positive........

Today isn't a happy day for me. I have received 2 bad news. One is I wasn't selected for a job, and the other one is I went for a job interview today which the interviewers' body language is telling me that I'm not the person that they were looking for. Haiz.....what is happening? Must I really go back to the food science industry? If I go back to my previous industry, all these 3 years of study in obtaining a Communications degree will be wasted. I don't want this to happen. I am only asking for a chance to allow me to either work in the PR, Marcom or events. Is that so difficult? Is it because my character doesn't suit these industries? I know my weaknesses, but why can't these companies give me a chance to prove myself? From the day I ended my exams, I have sent out an estimated 100-200plus resumes. Why aren't there more interviews? Why aren't there any offers given to me? I am really puzzled. Is the problem on me or what? I am somewhat frustrated because it has been so many months. Where is that job?!

I am now blogging instead of working because currently I have finished all the work that were given to me. Blogging secretly is challenging because I am trying not to be caught red-handed. I find that office work is the most boring and the most difficult to kill time especially when I have finished the things on hand. The other reason I dare to blog is because my direct boss is on leave today so the eyes are not behind me. Life here is incomparable to the days in Pokka because I was able to move around the production floor. It is easier to kill time there than here. Luckily this job is a temp job which will end on 2nd October. I really can't imagine working here all my life. Haiz....I need a permanent job which is more exciting and fun. A job which enable me to move around or goes out or travel out of Singapore.
Recently, I am lost again. I seems to have difficulty finding the real me, and I am not sure what I want in life. I can't see what is in front of me. I can only see that its pitch black. I really need to get away from my family, friends and Singapore. I am not being selfish, but I really need to get away from all these for a period of time to find myself and to know what I want in life. This feeling is back once again. The feeling of leaving everything here to go elsewhere to take a break and spend some quality time alone. I guess this is because I have been portraying different me with different group of people till I'm kind of lost. I feel that I have given lots of myself to others but not to myself yet. I need to spend some time with myself, and to do this the best way is to get away from here for a period of time.
There is this chinese saying "If you are successful in your career, you may not be successful in your love life." And vice verse. Hmmm....how true is this? I believe that there are people who can achieve success in both their love life and work life. Currently, I haven't achieve these two things yet. I haven't got a permanent job, and that special someone hasn't appear in my life yet. However, I believe they will appear soon especially for the career part. I believe that I will be offer a job that I like anytime now. I am not sure why I am so certain about it, but my feelings tell me so. No matter what happens, I must stay positive and stay positive.

Wei Si, jia you!!!

It has been long since I have updated. The reason for not updating my blog is because I'm lazy. I have been working as a temp program assistant for nearly a month now. I'm still learning and getting use to it. But recently, I have been making way too many mistakes. I am not sure what got into me, I don't make mistakes that frequent and this is a very rare. Work is still ok, but I find that it is quite boring because most of the time I'm bound to my desk. I think I not use to sitting at my desk 90% of my time. I still prefer jobs that requires me to move around. I WANT MY DREAM JOB! haha.....
I am still looking for a full-time job even though I'm working as a temp now. This working life really need time to get use to because I have not been in the working world for the last 3 years. I feel my freedom is suddenly being deprived of because now around 80% of my waking hours are at work. Haiz....now I yearn to go back to the lifestyle that I had during the holidays. I know I can't do that unless I can find someone rich to provide for me. haha....I think I am day-dreaming or maybe a sign for me to go to bed. I will update more when I can.

The end of June is here. Another few more days it will be the start of July. My convocation is near and that means I will be an official graduate. I went to collect my academic regalia on Monday with my mum. I think my parents are happy and sad at the same time. The happy part would be that I am graduating, and the sad part is I'm still jobless. We will be having studio photo taking at Serangoon Broadway, but it will only happen after my sister graduates. That would take place in 2-3 years time. I choose to wait for my sister to graduate because that would save us money for taking the photos twice. We are planing to have our photos taken with our grandma as she was the one who looked after us when my parents are working. I think we will be taking a few photos at Serangoon Broadway when my sister graduates. Individual portraits of my sis and me, a family portrait(4 of us), a family portrait with my grandma, and a portrait of my grandma, sister and me. I hope that if possible I would want a portrait of my sister and me as well. Serangoon Broadway will be happy as they will be earning a lot from us since we will be taking quite a few photos. I suppose at that time my wallet will be bleeding as these photos would cost a lot. When I get a job, I must save a part of my salary for the photos as well.

Staying at home has been the best way to pass my days. The reason for me to say this is because going out means spending money. In order to minimize my spending, I choose to go out once a fortnight or even longer. This way, I do not need to ask money from my parents. To live more economically these days, I started going to the library to borrow storybooks, eat 98% of my meals at home, etc. I have successfully turned myself into a homely gal. I don't know whether this is a good sign or a bad one. At times, I do yearn to go out with my friends or to watch a movie or to have a nice cup of coffee. I resisted as now I am officially categorized under unemployment status. To curb those temptations, I will normally go down for a walk around my neighborhood. The walk does helps me a lot as it helps me to take my mind off those thoughts. I know this is a transition period, but it is unknown to me how long this period will last to officially announce that I am financially independent. I really can't wait to that day to arrive because it is not that good to be still dependent on my parents. I would like to lighten my parents' financial load soon. To achieve that I need a full-time job. However, I have to be patient about getting a job because fate and luck play a part in the process.

Today is just like any other days. I received a wedding invitation from my secondary school friends. Both husband and wife were my classmates for five years. I will be attending their wedding dinner in July at Swissotel Merchant Court. Since I'm on this topic, this year I will be attending 2 friends' wedding - one in July and another in August. This will burn a hole in my pocket. Haiz....now already so broke :( But what choice do I have. The worst one would be my graduation that will be at 10 July. I thought the tea and tickets to attend the ceremony should be free,but SIM is getting money out of us - $16 for an adult which includes tea. I will be getting 4 tickets for my family - dad, mum, sis and my grandma. I will not be graduating with an honours because my GPA is short of 0.6 to get a 3rd degree honour. I am kind of sad, but there is nothing I could do. Anyway in the working world, grades don't really matter as the only thing which matter is the work performance (this is true and I am consoling myself). I had worked 21months before I entering the education system again. Once I became an employee there, everything had to be re-learned as there is a vast difference between what is taught at school, and how things are done in the real world.
My job searching is still on the go. Seems like with this bad economy downturn which hit last year, jobs are becoming less and unemployment are increasing. I heard from my dad that a cousin of mine had been retrenched recently. So I think if I still can't find a job after my convocation, I will have to resort to temporary or contract jobs first.